FINALLY getting EVERYTHING back to normal around here! Minus the teeth issue – AGAIN! Just as I was starting to film again and have life on schedule and organized – one of my Implants decided to go ahead and fall out on me! My jaw still hasn’t fully healed from the incident that knocked my teeth out in 2006 – so many surgeries and “false teeth later” this is the longest I will be completely without a front tooth, even a flipper – so, at the bottom of this post – Angela and I recorded a little video sharing a bit more about that…
BUT, for now, the important thing, tutorials! I’m so excited! So thankful for Kala helping me out to make a cast of his little baby hand and his little baby foot! I can NOT handle play dough at ALLLLL – but I love the results! Wish I would have made something like this for Bensen and Jenavieve!!!
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PERSONAL MOMENT WITH MEGAN
Here’s that little video – getting REALLY real with Megan! I really HATE sharing this, but I’m NOT letting this hold me back in anyway anymore…One day this WILL be healed by God’s grace and there will be the appearance of a tooth with my full smile back again….but it’s not just about my “smile” anymore – it’s about really releasing the pain both physically and emotionally behind these teeth.
There is so much to this story of how and why this happened that I’ve never really been willing to publicly share. I’m still not willing, nor am I ever likely to fully share all the details of “what really happened”. It took many years for me to share what really happened at all with family and my closest of all friends. Not because I want to keep secrets, but because the details are really not all that important in the end…but what it has done inside of me…that is.
I haven’t been going through all these tooth issues because I have weak teeth, or didn’t care for them or genetic reasons…This happened from something that truly was an accident from the poor choices of someone else’s actions, consequences. I go back and forth with anger and bitterness over this “smile” sometimes. The physical pain let alone the appearance feels like a constant reminder and a “punishment” if you will, for choices I made even leading up to this allowing to happen.
All through ByMeganElizabeth.com I’ve been sharing making your dreams come true, taking action, and not making excuses or allowing bitterness to hold you back, but always be thankful and always be forgiving. I’m sharing this because it’s a reminder to me that I continue to have to practice! While I feel I do forgive the actions of someone else, the pain and reminder has never fully gone away. How quick and easy it is to hide, cry and disappear inside myself over it. I’ve done it many times. I’ve shared portions with everyone but hid so much out of self consciousness and fear. I’m not going to anymore. I HATE the way this looks, but yet I’m STILL being taught so much about myself through it! Yes it’s humbling, but mostly, its a reminder of choices that I made and a cycle I do not have to repeat ever again. Yes I may “feel” sad or in pain sometimes, but the person I am because of this continues to grow more and more into the woman God has called me to be. She’s not perfect, she’s not all Proverbs 31, but SHE was called by God to have a future, a purpose, a hope and a plan (Jeremiah 29:11). And you know what??? I’m not the only one! There IS a purpose, hope and PLAN for YOUR LIFE too. Are you going to choose to step up and take action towards that fulfilling purpose? Or are excuses going to be the thing that keeps you stuck?
Soooo….Here’s a little video – this is ME! AND YES – I STILL LOVE AND THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!
Without saying to much and reading between the lines as they say at least you got 2 beautiful kids:). I know it’s hard to move on.
Hello Megain,
I pray that everything works out for you. You are such and amazing woman to share your story and your life and all it’s moments. Be blessed and know that God does have a purpose for your life. He is in control. Let him heal you like only he can.
Luria
Hi Megan!
I’m so sorry to hear about what your going through, I saw your video, I can see and hear your pain and suffering. But you are beautiful and with such a beautiful smile! And yes like you quoted, their is a future, a hope, a purpose, and a plan from God (Jeremiah 29:11) for all of this that is happening. God is waiting for each and everyone of us to call on Him to pray to Him, and He will answer your prayers since we came from Him and to Him, we shall return (St. Agustin) and it is through our hearts we shall seek Him (Jeremiah 29:12) and like you, I suffer great pain and I’m learning to forgive which is probably the hardest thing to do, but with the help of God I am able to do this, you see this is the first time I’m writing about this. And like you I wake up sometimes thinking I could have probably avoiding all of this if I only stayed home an extra 1/2 hour or so. But all of this was already in the plans of my future even before I was even conceived. God knew this was my way back to Him. My life changed in March 2011. I was in a severe multi-car accident. (But I never felt or heard anything I know my Guarding Angel protected me from that.) I was at a red traffic light when I was struck from behind (a large tundra pickup truck going about 65 mph or maybe more) left my honda accord into an accordion. I was in a coma for 10 days, in ICU for 2 months and 2 more months for rehab. At the end of this whole ordeal to face the fact that I am now a spinal cord handicap with excruciating spasms and pain from my waist down every morning and most of the day with no way out of this horrible nightmare bubble! but little by little to find my answer through God. Like a jigsaw puzzle I’m putting the pieces back together again. 1st by the shocking expression my Dr. Gave me when he saw me walking (with the assistance of a walker) in his office. I didn’t know why at the time but then after his big bear hug he told me he never expected to see me walk, EVER!. With the kind of spinal cord fracture I had. I should be bed ridding and in a wheelchair for the rest of my life. I told him “I never got that memo!” LOL! He told me he was glad I didn’t. My legs move the way I want, it’s just the feet that can’t do the up and down motion. But I’m ok with that. It’s just all the nerve pain and the “Why me factor”. Remember It could have been worse. But like I said that God had a plan for me and that’s to help bring back souls back to Him through my testimony of faith. I don’t call it courage I see it as a purpose, a reason, don’t think I’m doing this alone. Because of this My faith grew as I got closer to God, and it’s still growing. I’v had a miracle as well. During my pain and suffering a prayer was answered, (long story short.) LOL! I met my neurosurgeons mother on a flight (let me know if you want to hear how that happened) Oh and not just ANY neurosurgeon but when I googled him, I find that God didn’t just send me any neurosurgeon but the Chief Neurosurgeon of CT! My husband is my pillar. He had to give up his job, his passion (a leader in the Catholic Movement) to help me. Now to wrap this all up. God has a purpose for each and everyone of us but we have to get connected to him. “Ask, and you will receive; seek, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you. (Matthew 7:7) ( I am a witness to this verse.) God bless you and I will pray for you and everyone else who needs Gods healing.
I really appreciate the fact that you just want to get real with people. Share the good, share the struggles, pick yourself up and go on in spite of what happens, whether it’s our fault or someone else’s fault. It’s a shame that so many people don’t realize that God isn’t expecting perfection from us, just that we hang on to Him and trust no matter what. Is that easy? NO! Thanks for being a good model of this commitment. God bless you.
God Bless You Megan,
I know you have been through so very much and an awful lot of pain waiting for baby Grayden to be born. Now back to your teeth and what seems to be a never ending problem for you. I hope health wise you will recover quickly. I have a son-in-law that is going through a very rough time too. He had a mitral valve surgery last November and two strokes since that all within the last year. He is 48 years old. I don’t know why bad things happen to good people but they do. You do have three beautiful children and I do think you will have a wonderful life in the years ahead. Just hang in there and keep going strong.
Oh, my precious friend! My heart aches for you, but I know God has wonderful things in store for you and your beautiful children! This is a test of your faith, nothing more! God is SO GOOD!! I know it is hard when you are in the midst of trials to remember that sometimes, but based on my life experiences the last couple of years, I know God has been with me every step of the way. I can look back now and see Him moving in my life and bringing my life in line with His will for me. His methods might not be what we would choose, but never forget that He loves us so much, and He can see the big picture! I am here for you and will continue to keep you in my prayers! Love ya, Girl!!